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Nyxial

John Heemeyer

Feb 7, 2025

Resting Under Raven's Wings - ACT 2

Act 2: The First Strand

 

Nyxial stepped onto the fungal moon of Mykara beneath a sky that had only ever touched the edge of twilight, never going further into the darkness of night. She stood in the undergrowth of one of the moon’s many forests, it’s surface lightly carpeted with pale mycelium tendrils. Something was wrong, the mycelial carpet at this time should be thick and pulsating with life, but what little energy flowed was stuttering, it was frantic, exhausted. Kanna had sent her here because Asthéneia’s blight had left a scar deeper than rot.

The Pillar of Night moved silently across the spongy ground, her long raven-feather wings trailing behind her like a cloak of living shadow. Where her bare feet touched, the mycelium relaxed. Tiny threads that had been clenched in constant alertness loosened, as though remembering what it felt like to relax. She followed the distress calls only she could hear… not sound, but the faint psychic pressure of minds that had forgotten how to sleep.

The dominant life on the moon was a species of tripedal mycelial beings that had formed a hive-mind before they had even attained sentience. Now they called themselves the Mykleel, and Nyxial was in their domain. She walked the mycelial path towards the Heartwood, where their hive-mind had centered itself generations ago. It had been dozens of generations since then, but somehow the species was failing. Their numbers had been continually dropping generation by generation, so much so that their population was now only a third of what it had been before their enlightenment.

Even now, as Nyxial walked through the underbrush of one of the world’s forests, Mykleel colonies were becoming disconnected from the overall mycelial connections that allowed their hive-mind to exist. If things didn’t change soon, the hive-mind would fall apart, and individual hives would begin to vie for dominance.

Nyxial stopped at the edge of the Heartwood’s central glade, a cathedral-like hollow lit by soft blue bioluminescence. “I am Nyxial,” she said, voice soft as velvet night. “I have come to help you remember rest.”

The Hive-mind answered as one voice, a thousand overlapping whispers braided into a single, resonant tone that vibrated through the mycelium beneath her feet. “We do not rest. Rest is death. The Blight taught us this.”

Nyxial’s starry veil shifted gently around her shoulders. “The blight taught you fear,” she replied. “But fear is not wisdom. Let me show you why your people are dying faster now than it did before the blight first took root here.” She knelt and placed one hand against the spongy floor. A gentle wave of night rolled outward, not darkness, but the idea of night. The soft, safe, necessary pause that every living thing requires.

The mycelium around her sighed. A small cluster of fruiting bodies that had been locked in rigid alertness slowly drooped, their lights dimming to a peaceful glow. The Hive-mind recoiled in panic. “They will be harvested! The Blight returns for the weak!”

Nyxial kept her voice calm, patient. “Listen, Mykleel. I will explain what you have forgotten.” She sat cross-legged on the mycelium floor, her wings spreading around her and the nearby mycelium like a shield. She began to speak in a gentle tone, one that felt like singing a lullaby to an entire world.

“There are many ways minds can exist. An individual mind is alone. It thinks its own thoughts, dreams its own dreams, and must rest or its thoughts become unclear, and in time it fractures. An individual mind can survive only a few days without sleep before hallucinations begin. After two weeks, the mind breaks so completely that the body dies.

A collective-mind is different. It is many lesser minds working together, but each still keeps its own identity and autonomy. They share thoughts when needed, yet each can step away and rest. Their strength comes from cooperation, not fusion. But if one lesser mind of the collective does not rest, the cooperation the union is built upon cracks, and in time the collective-mind fractures and separates.

An overmind is one single mind wearing many bodies. All thoughts belong to the one. There is no separation, so the overmind must rest its entire network at once or risk total collapse, though it is more stable and can last longer than an individual mind.

And then there is the hive-mind, what you are. You are a seamless collective of lesser minds. Each fruiting body carries a fragment of awareness, but there is no true ‘I’… only ‘we.’ Your strength is unity. Your weakness is that you cannot easily let any part of yourself rest.

 When one thread sleeps, the whole fears it has died. When one body stills, the hive fears infection. This fear is what the blight awakened in you. The blight made rot happen too quickly. Bodies that should have decayed slowly and naturally now collapsed almost instantly. Your hive-mind learned to treat stillness as a sign of imminent harvest. So you stopped allowing any part to rest. You forced every lesser mind to stay awake, constantly connected, constantly alert. You turned your greatest strength — perfect unity — into a cage.”

The Hive-mind was silent for a long time. The veins around Nyxial pulsed unevenly, as though the entire moon were holding its breath. ”We… fear the quiet.”

“I know,” Nyxial said softly. “But the quiet is not death. The quiet is where minds heal. In every living thing, sleep is not optional. It is when the mind prunes useless connections, consolidates memory, repairs neural damage, and processes emotion. For a hive-mind, sleep of the lesser minds is even more vital. Without it, the lesser minds begin to degrade. Hallucinations spread through the network. Paranoia becomes policy. Eventually the entire hive-mind suffers collective brain death while still believing it is awake. Your population has already dropped by more than sixty percent since the blight. You are killing yourselves by refusing to rest.”

A long, trembling pause. Then the Hive-mind asked, small and afraid “How do we… begin?”

 

Nyxial smiled — the gentle, maternal smile she would reserve only for the frightened. “Start small. Choose one cluster. Allow its lesser minds to rest. I will watch over you. I will keep the night safe. No blight will touch those who sleep while I am here.” She extended both hands. From her raven-feather cloak, soft threads of night unfurled — not darkness, but the comforting velvet of true rest. They settled over a nearby cluster of fruiting bodies like a blanket.

One by one, the lights within that cluster dimmed. The lesser minds inside slipped into sleep for the first time in generations. The Hive-mind shuddered — a planetary ripple of fear. Then something miraculous happened. The sleeping cluster’s lights began to pulse in slow, peaceful rhythms.

Damaged neural threads began to repair themselves. The collective pressure on the rest of the hive eased, just slightly. The Hive-mind let out a sound that was half-sob, half-sigh — a thousand voices breathing out at once. “We… feel them healing.”

“Yes,” Nyxial whispered. “This is what sleep is for, this is why night exists..”

She stayed with them through the long artificial night she had woven. She sang lullabies older than stars. She told stories of other hive-minds that had learned to rest and grown stronger for it. She explained how even the unity of a true hive-mind still required the lesser minds to recharge, or the entire structure would eventually collapse under the weight of accumulated micro-trauma.

Hours passed. The sleeping cluster woke — brighter, calmer, more coherent than before. They shared their dreams with the hive in gentle waves of color. For the first time in generations, the Mykleel experienced something like wonder. One by one, other clusters asked to rest.

Nyxial granted each request, wrapping them in her velvet night.

By the time the moon’s slow rotation brought natural twilight back to the surface, nearly a third of the Mykleel had tasted true rest. The population drop had already begun to slow.

The Hive-mind spoke again, this time with something like awe in its thousand voices. “We thought strength was never stopping. We were wrong.”

Nyxial rose, her cloak settling around her like the close of a gentle evening. “Rest is not weakness,” she said. “It is the foundation of all strength. Remember that. Teach your children that. And when the night comes again, do not fear it. Welcome it.” She turned to leave, but paused. “And tell the others — the ones who still carry the old fear — that Nyxial watches over the quiet places now. No one will be harvested while they sleep.”

The Hive-mind sent a wave of gratitude that rippled across the entire moon — a soft aurora of blues and violets that danced between the mushroom caps. Nyxial smiled once more, then stepped back into the weave, her raven-feather cloak trailing stars.

Behind her, the fungal moon of Mykara finally learned how to breathe. And somewhere in the distance, a single small cluster of Mykleel minds slipped into their first peaceful dream in generations — dreaming of soft night, safe shadows, and the gentle voice that had taught them it was safe to let go.

 

Nyxial found Asthéneia on an island of grey stone drifting alone in the Temporal Limbo, floating deep within the void. A solitary chunk suspended in the endless dark between strands, its edges crumbling slowly into the void, though not a piece fell. At its center rose a throne still half-formed of putrid mold, glistening and soft. Beside it, Dara worked in silence, her hands shaping the living decay with careful, intimate precision.

The moment Nyxial’s raven-feather cloak brushed the stone, Dara’s head snapped up. Caution flickered across her features, wariness at the approach of a Pillar other than her own. She stepped back from the throne at once, lowering her head just enough to show respect without submission.

Dara looked to Asthéneia and spoke, voice low. “I will finish elsewhere, so you may talk privately.” Without waiting for reply she moved to the far edge of the island and began to raise a private gallery from the same grey stone and soft mold: open arches, thin walls that let sound and sight pass freely. The throne she left unfinished for now, but usable.

Asthéneia reclined upon what already existed of the seat, her face tilted toward the void. Black tears slid down her face, never dropping, and not quite reaching the rotten hole in her cheek. She regarded Nyxial with golden eyes that held neither welcome nor dismissal, only curiosity tempered by something quieter.

“Little shadow,” she said at last. “You have been to Mykara.”

Nyx inclined her head. “I have.”

Asthéneia’s laugh was soft, almost fond, yet edged with a private sorrow. “And how does that fungal carpet fare? Still so afraid of the quiet that they cannot yet see the beauty the softening was meant to reveal?”

Narrowing her eyes, Nyxial answered with a disapproving glance, “They are called the Mykleel. And no, I helped them overcome the fear you instilled in them.”

“How quaint… you collect the names the mortals choose for themselves.” Asthéneia waved her hand dismissively, “They are the surface upon which the work is done, not the hand that holds the brush. Their minds exist to feel the gift, not to comprehend the giver. There is little call to honour such names beyond what the canvas itself demands.” In the distance Nyx saw the work Dara was doing pause, as Dara glared in their direction. Whether that glare was directed at herself, or at Asthéneia, she could not tell. “My blight was their test, to see if they could better themselves and evolve. It would seem that they failed, if they needed your help to recover.”

Asthéneia gestured, and the air above the island shimmered with faint after-images of fruiting bodies locked in frantic alertness, of a hive-mind that had forgotten how to let any part of itself rest. “My domain has a deeper purpose than mere entropy. It is the beauty of pain, not the absolution of death. Healing and mending to not have to feel the pain again. That is the deeper art of my domain.” Asthéneia continued, voice quieter now. “Entropy is not only ending; it is the necessary softening that allows new growth. It is disappointing they needed another hand to finish the lesson. They should have found the way back themselves, or failed completely. Yet…” She tilted her head thoughtfully, black tears still sliding. “Another artist’s strokes can make the remaining canvas more beautiful. You gave them rest. You taught them that the quiet is not death. What remains on Mykara is no longer only my work. It is ours. And it is more complete for it.”

She leaned forward slightly, her golden eyes catching the dim light of distant strands. “Beauty is sharper than comfort, sister of darkness. Look at what my blight and your night together produced: a people who once feared stillness now learn to welcome it, carrying the scar of what they almost lost. That is beauty. Despair made exquisite, then softened into wonder. Can your gentle night do better than that shared canvas?”

Nyxial studied the images without flinching. Then she answered.

“Even loss can be beautiful,” she answered. “I see the scar your blight left on Mykara and the healing that followed; both have their place, and together they form a canvas richer than either stroke alone. Yet I prefer a beauty that cannot be reached—one that does not need to wound to be felt. Despair is loud. I want wonder that whispers. Let the weary look up and still want to wake tomorrow, remembering they were held in something gentle rather than only that they once almost broke.”

Nyxial raised one wing of her cloak, raven black feathers spreading wide. From its folds spilled soft silver… moonlight, starlight, the faint glow of distant nebulae. The clouds that capped timeless limbo separated for a moment as she worked, some twisting down to join the art she was painting. She shaped them with careful fingers: a crescent moon cradling a sleeping world; a sky full of slow-moving galaxies that looked like lullabies made visible; an aurora in colors no day had ever dared—deep indigo, bruised violet, the green of new leaves seen by candlelight. She laid the finished sky across the open arches of Dara’s half-formed gallery like a living curtain.

The grey stone island grew quieter. Even the slow crumble at its edges seemed to respond, stirring the slightest bit at the imagery. Asthéneia was silent for a long moment. Then she reached out and touched the edge of Nyxial’s cloak, black tears finally falling free.

“It hurts,” she whispered, “but gently.”

She leaned back against the unfinished throne, mask settling into something almost like rest. “Paint that across every night, little sister. Let them wake remembering they were beautiful once, scar and all.”

Nyxial bowed, deeper this time. When she left the floating island, her cloak was heavier, rich with the understanding that even loss could hold beauty, yet laced with a wonder soft enough to heal without needing the wound.

She rose into the Limbo and spread her arms. Across every strand that had ever known exhaustion, the sky changed. Moons appeared like quiet promises. Stars scattered like spilled jewels. Auroras danced in colors that made the weary smile in their sleep.

Night had learned its first lesson, beauty. The velvet cloak grew deeper, and the strands slept a little sounder.

© 2016-2019 by John Heemeyer and the DECIDE crew.

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